Deirdre

 

Atmosphere talked it wasn’t home
atleast not anymore

I tried to search for her
knowing she’s not coming back

Her little cries
Making sound
Her barks
I wouldn’t hear anymore

Her little body
Finding herself to bed
Her warmth
I wouldn’t feel anymore

Her licks
Her kisses
Wetting our faces
I wouldn’t get any anymore

Her claws
Making scars
I wouldn’t be wounded anymore

Her eyes
Her eyes..
I will always remember

Her eyes
I couldn’t stare to anymore
Her eyes
I couldn’t talk to anymore

In your presence..
we found friendship
inspite of not tapping our shoulders

we found love
inspite of not saying anything

we found family
inspite of the difference

our little mini pinscher
wherever you may be
you’ve been a part of our life
and always will be

wherever you may be
we know you loved us
we know you protected us
and you are loved

You are loved Didie
Our little Deirdre

 

Little of Everything

Too much words will hurt you
so does too much silence

Too much honesty will destroy you
so does every kind of lies, even the white ones

Too much loving will damage you
so does too much pretending

Too much pain will weaken you
so does too much happy thoughts

It is not only the “too much” which hurts us
often times, it’s the little bits of everything that really do.

The Fake Smile

The smile I gave you
it’s the same
just the same
with the things that happened
between me and you

The smile I gave you
it’s like
the friendship
that fails

Already Hurting

I can’t tell you
I can’t tell you because I don’t wanna hurt you

I can’t just tell you what I feel
You’re vulnerable
And telling you might just hurt you more

And seeing you hurt by what I’m supposed to say
Will hurt me even more
Knowing that I’ve hurt you more than you’re already hurting

 

Cheersarcasticism

Here’s to being “okay”

Here’s to forever just “okay”

“OKAY”.

Oh yes

Oh yes

I’ve got a bad side

a dark side

worst

dark secrets

many of them

lots and lots

and i even wonder

if someone’s gonna accept me

the way i am

if someone’s gonna love me

the way i am

those dark dark dark secrets

worst ones

 

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When…

when I put down my book just to be there with you
when I stop talking just to hear your voice
when I’m eager to greet you first thing in the morning
when I’m reluctant to say goodnight because I still wanna talk to you

when I do those kind of things

that’s because
I really want you

I Didn’t Fall In Love

I didn’t fall in love with you the very first time I saw you
I didn’t fall in love with you the second or third or fourth time I saw you

I fell in love between knowing you and being with you