Factual Nightmare: Those Sleepless Nights

WAY BACK three years this “thing” was first experienced by me. Every night whenever I go to bed I am frightened thinking that it will happen again. Every night I found myself lying awake staring at the darkness that encompasses my room wondering how real it was, how real it has happened.

We were peacefully sleeping, four of us in bed; in my right was my sibling and in my left was my aunt. Before long I heard a loud BANG!, just like something really gigantic has fallen in our roof. Then I questioned myself, didn’t they (people I’m with in the room) hear that? That sound was loud enough and it scared me, I was confused that they didn’t even hear that. I saw a shadow in our window which was open but we do have a screen so the insects cannot get in.

Back with the shadow I saw, it has red eyes but it was only a shadow, a shadow that looks frightening which I can call as a bodyless beast.  I was anxious, uneasy; it was pulling me towards the window, pulling me using its red eyes. I felt my body floated heading for the bodyless beast except something was holding me back, I think that something was myself, I was holding myself back. I heard someone was praying, begging God. I veered my head and saw my aunt murmuring, speaking softly but very fast. She was the one praying, a rosary in her hands with her eyes tightly closed. I decided to fight back, to stop the bodyless beast from abducting me. I was kicking and punching so hard but I cannot move. I tried to move my head but I can’t, my hands, my feet, it was like “they” was holding me tight. “They” were I do not know if human beings or just many shadows like bodyless beast. I yelled at them.

Sonofabitch! Let go of me!”, “You sonofabitch!”, “Let me go!”, “You all are shit!”, those were the phrases I barked but how much louder I shouted those, there are no sounds coming out of my mouth, it’s just in my mind that I’m shouting. I cannot move, cannot speak, and cannot even open my eyes. Then I need to do something, I tried and tried to move and shout but nothing happened. The bodyless beast was so close to getting me.

Before long I attempted again to move my leg then I woke up. I was so nervous and I inspected my surrounding, all of them were sleeping. Nothing had happened. It was just a nightmare, but a very real nightmare. Sleep. My body was begging me to sleep, my eyes wanted to sleep but I don’t want to. Like something was drugging me to sleep again. So I get up, turned on the light and jumped and jumped and jumped. I went to sleep again with the rosary in my hand praying for God’s protection.Since that happened, I find it hard to sleep at night. I started to search it on the net and found out that some had also experienced that. Until today, it never stop happening to me. It will occur for at least twice a week or at most twice a month.

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(pictures from Google images)

What a Wonderful Place

Somebody Will Always Be There

DO YOU guys ever felt alone in your lifetime? There are some moments that I have felt lonely, that I can’t lean on anybody. There was this gloomy day after class. Together with a classmate of mine, we went to the chapel. Before we reach the chapel it rains, rains so hard. I’ve got no umbrella but my classmate has, so we shared but then my classmate decided to go home and took a ride. I was left. Alone. In the middle of that heavy rain. I started looking for anywhere to go but no near place to stop by. So I thought to go home than to stay there in the middle of the rain. I wait for a trike (tricycle), geez, all of them were taken. I waited and waited. Til I got one, but! But, I remembered that my money was a 500 paper bill and the driver doesn’t have other lower bills or coins to give my change. 20 pesos is all I needed, so I started to count my coins. I got a 10-peso coin and then 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 17, 17, 17.

There was this shiny day after my first class. Every after this class I got a company to go to my dorm coz my next class is for the next two hours. But then I told my company that I will not come with her because I need to pass my paper in other subject. So I walked to the building where I need to pass my paper and it’s so shiny and hot and I’ve got no umbrella (take note: this was college the other scenario above is secondary). When I have passed my paper I decided to take a ride to go to my dorm because I can’t walk anymore, not in this kind of day and my dorm was a slight far from where I am. When I was about to ride, I checked my wallet to see if a have coins for the cab and I found no wallet in my pocket. I looked in my bag for it but it was not also there. Oh geez, then I returned in the building where I passed my paper but didn’t have luck, I returned in the building where my first class was, but then my wallet is not there. No choice, I walked from there to my dorm in the middle of that hot and shiny day and I’m sweating.
    And I got many experiences of those, especially when it comes to umbrella. And I think there will be more incident of being alone and ashamed. But as I have experienced those, I have learned one thing, that even if I think I’m alone, I’m not, that there is always somebody with me, somebody with my side, with my heart. And that somebody is God. God is always with me, and in me. I know that everyday, even if someone has abandoned or will abandon me, God never will. He will always be with me and in me. I praise Him, I praise You my Lord.

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(pictures from Google images)