Say It

I WON’T believe it
until it comes out of you

You just walk in, in my life
don’t just walk out on me
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It’s Not a Title

MY GOODNESS! I hate this feeling very much! I’m so down. I wanted to cry. I’m dying inside.

Her words have power. Her words have stabbed me without warning. I just read her message for me and it hurts me. The message didn’t mind if it hurts me. I know it’s plain and straightforward but.. but it has a power over me.

I just wanted to yell. I wanted to punch just to let it out. Just to let the hurt, the pain out of me. I was bleeding inside. I want to talk to someone, to release this heaviness I’m carrying inside because I’m feeling that anytime, any moment I could burst. It’s like everybody turned their back on me. It’s like the world turned upside down. My world..

Please watch your words. It’s as sharp as a knife that stabbed me, as fast as a train that hit me. It’s as shit as a shit as a shit which hurts me. Please watch your words, how you throw them at someone. Please… you’re hurting me.

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When We Go With The Flow

Things Get Complicated

“YES”, “OKAY”, “no problem”, “of course”, nowadays these are the common answers of people if someone begs for a favor. Others became afraid of saying ‘no’ because when they say ‘no’ it’s like they’re out of this world, they’re out in the circle of friends. And it came to the point that people forgot to utter ‘no’. Then we are obliged to do what we do not want to do, we do the favor of others with our sad faces and with a heavy feelings, and we are, occasionally, do even the bad things. We kept walking on the wrong road even if we already knew we are on the wrong way which violated our own self, our own decision, our own life.

People often say “action speaks louder than word” and most of us believe those, most of us take that into action. I’m not saying it’s not right because it is true.. but not all the time. Our mistake is that we go with the flow; we are like ‘forced’ to believe something because that’s what many believe in to.

Sometimes people misunderstood your actions. For some it didn’t appear how you want it to and that’s when things get complicated. When things get complicated, explanations and reasons are needed but then those were just heard by the ears and not mind and heart. It means when you started to have explanations or reasons that’s when others have hard time accepting those because people, as well as the ears, got tired of listening. In order to avoid getting things complicated, at times, it’s better to talk first, talk. Let us learn to ‘not to do’ what many have done because the thing is; happenings have a different outcome. Maybe for others “action speaks louder than word” but not for all of us; we have different dilemmas, different problems, different life and we are different people, different from one another.

When we go with the flow, sometimes, things get complicated.

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