Put Me Away

IF THIS is a game, put me away.
This is the kind of game, I don’t wanna play.

You started this thing out of nowhere
And now, obviously, you made me –a player. Continue reading

When “We’re done” Ruined Me

MY LAST words for you
“I’m sorry.. but I still love you and I think I will always do”

But your last words to me
“We’re done”

as if all that has happened was just another game
as if what we have was just a plain label for you
as if all what we’ve been through was just.. just ‘having fun’
as if what we’ve felt wasn’t true.. wasn’t love
but it was is for me.

Well maybe you’re right..

it was just a game.. a game where I seriously and competitively played but then you won and that means losing everything– for me..

it was just a label.. a label which I treated as fragile but then you treated with no importance at all and that label was shattered..

it was just ‘having fun’.. a fun which I misunderstood as happiness but then it was just ‘having fun’ for you, nothing more..

it wasn’t true.. wasn’t love.. yet a simple truth and a pure love for me but then truth for you is just a word and that love is just another card in a deck of playing cards..

The words
even that short
has the power to break a bond.

The words
even that short
held an unlasting hurt.

The words
even that short
brought so much pain.

The words
even that short
is enough for me to shed tears.

The words
even that short
leave a scar on my heart
a hole in my life.

And the words
those words
came out of you.

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Undecided Title

ONE IS fighting for the title; the other, for the money.
One is fighting for his life; the other, for the lives of others.

One fight.
One game.
Two people.

Both have their own reasons to fight.
Both have their own pride to win.

Winning for them have different consequences, have different meaning.
But there is only one winner. And winner takes it all!

But what if winning means losing what you have and having what you didn’t wish for? And losing means having a totally new life, a life led by them.

Would you rather win than lose?
Or the other way around?

Would you play the game? What if you didn’t have a choice at all and fighting seems to be the last resort?

(to be continued?)

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Ultimate Game, My Ultimate Arrogance!

OKAY. SO in our OR (Outdoor Recreation) we played Ultimate! Okay I’ll admit it. At first I called it Frisbee. Well I know nothing about it. I didn’t even know how to play it. We were taught how to play. And yes, they corrected us. The game is not Frisbee. It’s Ultimate! Frisbee is a brand.

I was excited. Why? I’ve never played Ultimate before. I’ve never even touch any disc before. Haha! Watching others playing it looks like fun so I really wanted to try it. While they were discussing some things we need to know about Ultimate, I was somewhat bored because what I really wanted to do is play! But then they were right. We were just beginners and we needed those information in order for us to understand the game.

We were taught about the disc and the parts of it, back hand, fore hand, pancake, flicking of the wrist, moving of the leg, catching of the disk, holding of the disc, and throwing. The moment they said that we’ll gonna try it, I stood up ready to play.

We formed a small circle and throw the disk to one another. Don’t continue reading if you don’t want a boastful person because I’m gonna praise myself. Hahaha! From our instructor, I heard his; nice throw! good throw! Well he was saying it to me. I didn’t know I can play Ultimate! I really enjoyed it. Then when the other instructor approached us, he watches and teaches us one by one. One of my teammates told him that I was good and that I wanted to be in the varsity which is just based from her. He ask me, have you played Ultimate? Laughingly I answered, no, it was my first time really! HAHA. When he was at my side he quietly say, you wanted to join the varsity? you can. Well so much for the vaunt of myself. But it really made me feel great. I never knew I can really play.

But wait! It’s not yet the game. The game will just begin. Black (my team) versus Grey this time. I didn’t know the mechanics of the game but while playing, I managed to understand. I was made captain by my teammates. So yes, I was the captain of the black team! Hahaha. But then we were just beginners and playing Ultimate seems like a tiring game.

Black versus Grey was a tight game. The game ended with 1-1. Next week we’ll be playing again the same game. So I was really looking forward next week for the next game. I had so much fun.

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Kick! And Run For Your Life!

TODAY WAS a very tiring day. VERY. It was the very first game for our physical education 2 which is Outdoor Recreation. The only thing our prof told us was to wear sports attire. So we did. She didn’t tell us what our game will be.

When our prof finally explains what the game will be, almost all of us didn’t know it. KICKBALL. Yes it’s the game. If you didn’t know what it is, so am I. Haha. Just kidding. I was mixed up when our prof explained it. But then it’s not that hard to understand. I know you know what baseball and football are. Kickball is just like the combination of those; there are four bases, soccerball, no bat and no baseball. Just try to imagine it. By the way, the name of our group is Black Cat! (:

Side story: Black Cat. Here’s the origin of our group name. Our group were formed via the animal sounds. Each one of us has drawn a piece of paper with the corresponding animal labels each. Then we were scattered on the field and we were even blindfolded (I just closed my eyes haha). We’ll look for our groupmates by the sound of the animal that was written on the piece of paper. Mine was cat, so I’ve made the sound of; meow. I was meowing and meowing until we were two. Still meowing and hearing another person meowing, our meowing got louder until we were three, then four, then five. Until we were complete. Then we needed to decide what the color of our group will wear every meeting. We decided to choose white. But then the color white was forfeited coz other groups wanted that color too. Then we came up with the color black. We needed a team name and being so lazy to think I said; Black Cat! So the Black Cat was born.

My Awesome Team! Black Cat (:

“sa cat kami nabuo, sa black kami nagkasundo” –one of my friend, Berns, has written this coz we needed to explain why such is our chosen group name. Simple but meaningful.

Back to the game; kickball. The first round was the pink team versus the gray team. Second round was the blue team (where one of my close friends was) and the black team (where I belong). Then so on and on and on. Kick! Run! Run! Kick! Run! Out! Strike! Kick! Kick as if we were kicking out our feelings. Run! Run as if we were running for our life. I was afraid at first. Afraid I might not kick the ball as hard as possible. Afraid I might miss the ball. Afraid I might embarrass myself. But then, the moment I kicked the ball; wow! I really felt the freedom as how hard I’ll kick the ball. So I wouldn’t let that chance get away and I kicked it as hard as I can. I heard our prof praised me or praised the ball (I can’t remember her exact words but then it was a praise. Sorry for me being boastful haha)

Well I think the winner of this game was the BLUE TEAM. She’ll kill me if I didn’t mention it here, so here. Trisha, one of my friends, was the ‘best’ in their team, the team which won. But wait! Trisha being the ‘best one’ was “self-proclaimed”! Hahaha!

We were exhausted, we were thirsty, we were tired, we were sweating, we were panting, we were out of breath. And guess what, it was drizzling! It’s a rain or shine game. No, uhm, it’s a rain or shine class? Coz even if it’s raining, we’ll continue to play on the field. That’s what our prof said. Playing kickball while it was drizzling was hard coz the ball was slippery and we have a hard time catching it or running after it. And of course, the ‘diving-thing’ won’t be missing. Hahaha. There are lots of it. To sum it all, kickball was great, even greater coz it’s drizzling, even greatest coz of my teammates! (: We’ll be getting ready for the game next week! Black Cat for the win! (:

One more thing! We forgot to warm up before the game -.- So tomorrow I can see myself, I can hear myself whining about how my body aches, how my muscles throb.

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A Game of Chance

LIFE IS a chance. Staring at my reflection for some time something out of nowhere suddenly hits my mind. Ting! It just landed through my brain. Life! Not just life but about life being a chance. Life is a chance. Then I started to realize what if it really is a chance? Think of it. Our life is just a borrowed-thing from God and because of that we should be thankful for every moment. God granted us life to live; to live in order for us to use the chance He had given us; a chance to know if we are worth it; worth it to live with Him in His place, in His Kingdom. Can you understand my point? Life is given to us to live and let life as it is. The thing that matters is how well we have lived our life. Have we live and able to show that we are deserving to get the chance we needed? The chance which everybody wanted. The chance to continue our life with Him, with His love. Every day, every night, every seconds of our life are being watched, are being recorded by Him. Let not ask for I also did not know, no one knows but only He. One thing I’m certain, He is everywhere, He is in my side, in our side. Life is but chance, don’t go wasting it rather go enjoying it, go having a purpose, go and let Him see that we deserve that chance, that we deserve to live with Him forever. Grab with both of your hands and your heart the chance. Coz life is but a matter of chance.

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