How Much Is ‘A Lot’

I’VE BEEN thinking of you lately.

A lot.

^~~~^ ★

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Drown In Her Own

I LOOKED at her
witnessed her weak smile
she looked back at me
not knowing her mind is somewhere else

Get Out Of My Mind

YOU WERE out of my mind

because you were out of my sight..

but now

You’re out of my sight..

but I can’t get you out of my mind.

^~~~^

I’ve Sketched My Heart

I STARE at the blank paper
a pen in my hand
I started to write
then I realized
I have written your name
so I crumpled the paper.

I stare at the blank paper
the pen still in my hand
I started to think
then I realized
I’m thinking of you
so I crumpled the paper.

I stare at the blank paper
I moved the pen in my hand
I started to draw
then I realized
I’m oblivious to everything
I just draw and draw.

I stare at the paper
not blank anymore
I stare at my drawing
my hand has sketched
my mind has thought of
my heart has dreamed of.

I stare at the paper
the drawing in it
seems familiar
right before my eyes
little did I know
I was staring at you.

 ^~~~^

My Eyes Recognized You Even Before I Do

I OPEN my eyes, sleepiness still clinging
It was just another morning
I managed to get up, laziness still embracing
It was just another class.

The next morning didn’t have any difference at all
Just another day to breathe, another class to attend
But not until my eyes caught someone
It recognized you even before I do.

And from that very time, that very moment
It wasn’t just another boring day
It wasn’t just another must class
You turned it into an extraordinary day.

Now isn’t just a word
Now is another moment
Now is when I met you
Now is a reason to live
Because now I found you.

It wasn’t just any thing
It was a something

It wasn’t just another feeling
It was a special feeling

“Maybe one day we could go
hand in hand down a golden road”
(Lovelier Than You – B.O.B)

^~~~^

We Heard It But We Didn’t Listen

WHY DO we, if not always then most of the time, answer a question and gave a wrong answer even if how simple the question is. Why are we so blind to think? When somebody asks us something we answer in a hurry thinking they needed the answer right away and our answer ending up wrong because the words came out our mouth even before the brain send the words for us to say it out loud. Why? Because we are so eager to answer all the questions thrown to us. As if not answering it the moment it is fired, it will lit and burn us to ashes. So instead of thinking what will our answer be, we gave the wrong answer, we have chosen the wrong words. And that complicate things. Why are we so blind to see? We focus on the answer in the question asked to us instead of focusing in the question itself. We have taught our eyes to look at the wrong side; looking for an answer without looking at the question first.

^~~~^

Living With These Clothes

IT’S OUR clothes.. Others may adore how brave we are. Some see us as a person who is fear-free, a person who walks with pride.

But bravery isn’t really it.

Sometimes we just didn’t want them to know how scared we are. We just didn’t want them to show our weaknesses. Because if we let them show such things, we don’t know how will they react, we don’t know what will happen.

And that’s the reason we are so afraid; we don’t want to know.. We don’t want to know because it will change something. And we’re afraid of changes. Afraid of changes because we’re not used to it. Because we don’t want to learn or to do new things. Because we don’t want to adjust. Because we don’t understand. Because it’s set in our minds that it will change the something into nothing.

And we all hate what we don’t understand.. So our tendency is to choose to wear our clothes on thinking things will be better that way.

“We fear what we do not understand.”

^~~~^