But if I would be asked why am I still wearing this.. It’s because this is special. It’s because this bracelet is as special as who taught me how to make it. What’s the big deal then?
The thing is.. I am still wearing this because I haven’t move on. The only reason to move on is I don’t feel anything for him anymore. But the only reason that I can’t and couldn’t move on is that I can’t bring myself to believe the only reason to move on. I can’t believe because it’s the reciprocal of what my heart has been telling me.
I don’t know til when I’ll be wearing this. But you know.. I tried not to wear it. But my body looks for it. My wrist crave for it. So I simply followed them. But that’s not my reason. It’s an excuse of an in denial me.
The truth is.. I felt incompleteness and my heart kept on looking for it. So I purposely ignored my brain and undoubtingly followed my heart.
How am I supposed to move on if everyday I think of you and every night I dreamed of you?
How am I supposed to move on if every silence means your absence and every voice means your words?
How am I supposed to move on if in every song I hear, I heard your voice and in every music I hear, I remember you?
How am I supposed to move on if in everything I do and even don’t do, I think of you?
How am I supposed to move on if every time I close my eyes, I feel the pain and every time I open it, I see the past?
How am I supposed to move on if I’ve given you my heart?
How am I supposed to move on if I couldn’t talk to my heart?
How am I supposed to move on if you are the only one for me?